Hard times.....

My First doctor apt with Maternal -fetal medicine I was 8 weeks along they did a ultrasound and said that they measured me being 6 weeks 2 days! I was confused knowing when my last cycle was... She worried me when she said that it either looks like a really early pregnancy or I could possibly be miscarrying!! I was so worried and they told me not to worry that the sack was nice and round and that I could just not be as far along as I thought ... So they told me to come back in 2 weeks and they would check me again..

10 weeks:

I went back on Tuesday March 10th and I told my husband he was coming with me this time because I didn't want to hear and more bad news along.. By this time the sack had started to co lapse it no longer looked nice and round it was more a oval shape and they should have been able to see something and hear something at this point.....sadly they never found a heart beat and I could tell they were trying to prepare me for what they were going to tell me...

My doctor just looked at me and said I don't think this pregnancy is going to be successful and I think your going to miscarry.. I was so devastated and just layed there thinking this wasn't happening to me ... After she left the room I got off the bed and walked over to Chace and just cry ed in his chest, with tears in his eyes he told me sorry and that there was nothing we can do and that he loved me..

2 days later Thursday March 12th I saw my OB doctor.. He looked over the ultrasound and notes that maternal-fetal medicine sent over.. He was sad that this was happening . He gave me some medicine that I took at home that night to get the miscarriage process going . Ned less to say Chace and I didn't get any sleep that night ... Thanks to Chaces mom she came and got Ryker when he woke up so Chace and I could get some rest...

We are so sad that this has happened but we are dealing with it day by day. I know heavenly father doesn't give you anything more then what you cant handle. I really believe we grow and become stronger through our experiences we face. I have faith that I will be blessed with another beautiful child some day.. We are so thankful for what we do have and that is Ryker we love him so much and glad he is apart of our family....

**Thanks to my family,friends.neighbors and ward members that showed us so much love and concern through this hard time..We love you !!!